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Nothing sweet I do, will be enough
Nothing I say, not how much I love.
Maybe I've changed.
But why should I be sweet?
when that's all im expected of
thats all you want.
I'm not allowed to be less than perfect
not allowed to be human
not allowed to be a speck of what you are.
You tell me to take the bad.
Don't be a pussy.
But I'm not perfect.
Maybe I'm worse than you.
Maybe I'm tired of being sweet.
Because all you do is shrug it off
and find my next biggest flaw.
Tell me why?
I try. God knows I try.
But how?
how do i keep it up?
when I feel its not appreciated.
I love you still.
and I know I always will.
But maybe I can't be sweet anymore.
Bittersweet. Maybe that's all I've become.
I love you still.
I know I always will.
I know this hurts. But can't help but feel
just what i feel
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Blurry Eyes
His eyes glazed. My eyes blurred. He was truly happy. I cried at that. I cried and it blurred, to me, anything or any thoughts that could ruin the moment. My eyes focused on him. I cried being truly happy. I love being loved and he loves loving me. We're a perfect match. In his eyes I see a world for us. In his pupils I see a globe of dark brown life. Joyful tears never ran so sweetly down this hill of cheeks. It slid into my mouth and tasted salty. A little bitter. But all I tasted was sweet.
I bought him a new phone. Boys and their toys. Anything electronic will make him smile. Oh, what a beautiful smile he had. Dimples on both sides, grinning like a little boy's first time playing in snow. He stared at the present and I stared at him. He doesn't notice me. He does, its just that he was appreciating my present to him. He loves it. He loves me for giving it to him. I love him. It was our anniversary. My gift was late because it was ordered specially from the UK. That's what he told me
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Alarm bells.
"Its been a while now since you passed." A whisper. The first breath he took that morning was for that whisper. It was the first thought as he woke. His alarm rang. 6AM. He seem to always wake up a minute before the alarm these days. Its like the day can't start unless he had those thoughts. Like the world won't wake if she wasn't remembered. There was no need to wake up early. He drifted back to sleep. His left arm spread across the right side of the bed. The empty half of the bed. No one slept on that side anymore. Not even him. It was a Sunday morning. This is how the story starts. This is how his morning starts.
It was a Sunday morning exactly 2 years after she had passed on and it hit him like an alarm clock that went off at a different time that it was set to.
8.23AM he awoke. He laid in bed, waiting for 8.30 to come. He stared at the door wondering, hoping if she would come in with breakfast on a tray. He smiled at the thought. He cried at reality. Two opposing emotions felt at
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I listened to Audioslave's Revelation. I listened hoping the word, immortalized in a song, can bring about my own revelation. "You know what to say, you know what i said." You know, I don't. "I'm so broken down, why don't you fix me?" Why don't you? Fix me. I wish someone would fix me. I wish I could fix me. But I don't even know what I said. Maybe I know, but I don't understand. The song starts slow, the beat is soothing. With three beats it sped up instantaneously as though the composer changed his mind about the direction of the song. Revelation. This could be mine.
Revelation. Revelation. Revelation.
I realized it the moment I woke up that morning. But lets start from the beginning, as all stories must. To start at the end would diminish the significance of series of events that allowed me my very own revelation and to understand that epiphany.  The beginning, as it would, is as cliche as every other beginnings of every other story; with a girl. She didn't sweep me off my
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Is this what the first day of spring feels like? Jubilation and rejuvenation? I've never experienced spring, nor the first day of it, But I imagine this is what it feels like. Almost like the beginning of a crazy, passionate affair; quirky, sweet and justified by love. Or the illusion of love in the case of affairs. But this is real isnt it? Those smile and laughter, its real? Those tears and pain, its real too unfortunately? But I guess in love there comes seasons too. Winter, when the heart feels cold and snowy. Summer when everything seems in full bloom but the weather becomes too hot to take and so we dress ourselves down to the bare minimum. Fall when the leaves are yellow and beautiful but everything's withering, another facade. Spring when love feels like the first and renewed.
Ahh, but the seasons, in love, is unscheduled, unpredictable and easily influenced. Today was spring, most other days, summer. Fall comes once in a while but we are beautiful together. You are. Winter is
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Alive tonight
Alive tonight.
Those momentary glances and stares
In a backdrop of laughter and lights.
Nothing moves, everything silent.
You & I, we're the only ones alive tonight.
A smile behind every word, a beat in our hearts.
The cloud parts and the dark turn bright.
We want to be lost, we want to find our own way
We want to survive the day, so we can come alive tonight.
So we lose ourselves in each others lives
hoping to help the other find a way out
but the path of the other feels so familiar
but hope lingers cause we're tired of doubt
and maybe for a moment we found our freedom light.
the moment we came alive; tonight.
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sweetest dreams
Sweetest Dreams.
Eyes shut, my mind starts to drift,
Into a land of fantasy and make believe.
I remember your words from my waking hours
So in my dreams we're there alone above all towers.
A cloud we float on, a view like no other
Lets us see the places we've been and will be later.
You're in my arms and my slumbering lips smile.
Knowing that its been you I've dreamt of, all this while.
I know I've made things difficult for you
You know i don't mean to.
I hope i havent made your life a nightmare,
I don't want to be your Mr.Sandman, out for a scare.
I can't help how i feel. I can't help but love.
How I wish, one day, We'd be up in that cloud above.
Where all is as it should be, everything as it seems.
Just like the way you were in my arms, in my sweetest dreams.
I've torn your life apart. But I'm too selfish to step back
I'm sorry for that, For the strength that i lack.
I couldnt contain it anymore, these dreams manifests.
In your heart i feel, like I'm the pesty guests.
And one day, I'
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Dzafirul Haniff
Current Residence: Singapore
Favourite style of art: Vector art...
Operating System: Windows Xp (wish i had a mac osX tho)
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Wallpaper of choice: Sunset heroes by me. haha
Favourite cartoon character: The simpsons
Personal Quote: Heart and Humour, Love and Laugh.


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Joey-Zero Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2008  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the fave dude.
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